once again.

once again, i think im wrong...
when it comes to the edge between to rain or not to rain, i would rather it will rain as heavily as it could be.. just like, when a relationship is over, but one side is still staying at the edge between to love or not to love, to let go or not... i would rather, i got that guts to hold it tightly... somehow, i lost it...

im supposed to make my 1st post excited rite?.. sorry guys... i did try.. but i hate this kinda weather.. those memories struk me again and im drown...

fine, since u r not going to and , yes, u will never know that i have a blog. im going to blog about this everyday, unless i forgot i have a blog.. *teehee*

08-01-10
i messeged u AGAIN today, it's nothing about missing u too much or still dragging it or what. its just, i wanna help jaren n michelle with that orientation night thingy, but im afraid that u will be there as well, and the atmosphere will be super awkward~!! (ok, i admitted that i was eager to see u around college everyday.. -.-) so i messeged u to confirm that there will be no u in that room or even, that area...
somehow, i miss u today, i wanna seeing u for longer. 1 more messege u replied, 1 more percent i thought bout yesterday. im not important for u anymore, of course u no need to reply my msg as soon as there will be someone scolding u if u reply just 1 sec slower.. what i read in a girl's blog can explain this '' when the heart of a guy is in ur hand, no matter how far u go, he will still be standing here and waiting for u; while it's not any longer, no matter what u did, it's just a joke to him''...
i'm lost whithout u... when i was at AC just now, i couldnt find my way. coz there r so many memories, and they r draggin me till i stood ther n stunned for a few secs. whenever i walk in AC, or, just pass by, i wish those days can come back again... once again, it wont be for ever and ever...
i really hate such a me...