I DON'T WANT TO SAY GOODBYE.

i don't wanna say goodbye. to the cherish old memory. to the nice old friends. to the sorrow old past.
something happened, push us to go forward, without regret. though, we do. very contraditory. but, this is life my dear. we somehow have to admit that we regret about something that we never did. we somehow have to admit that we regret about those we could hold but we let go at last.
i guess that's what i'm suffering and struggling now.

people around me are leaving. me, seems to be the only one that left out. can't hold my tears when i'm waving goodbye. when you, or you, or you turn around and leave me alone. there's something called 'blue mood' occupied my heart, till every tiny corner was full. i can't breathe properly.

i will never get a chance to see you and have fun with you like before. i'm sad. guys will easily ignore friends when they have girlfriend or target. yes, i'm referring to you, you, and you. :S
i don't have rights to criticize how others treat their loves. but, at least, don't ever ditch your friends, those used to help you a lot or had lots of fun with you. life is not only about love, not only about your stupid girlfriend/boyfriend!(that one likes to used 'lp' to describe others, don't get your seat here. :P)

last but not least, i hate 'lol'. if you're going to reply 'lol' only. you can close the topic and go far far away.

p.s. study week was totally screwed up by procrastination. ish ish. i hate myself!!!

ciaoz.