will you?

will time just stop there for a while, so that i can mourn those past for more a while before i move forward?
will all of us just keep going until we can't reach each other any more?
will my mind not to shiever whenever i heard about the past?

you are not supposed to wait there all the while. nothing's meant to be. my bad, my childish, my bad temper worsen things off. things will never turn back. even i'm alone, i still have to go on. it's an endless road, but i found it beautiful somehow. because of you. you were the best present that god ever granted me. i'm sorry that i used to hurt you. and i'm so thankful that you did all those for me. now, come back to real life, i wish you luck and joyful everyday.

went through the old photos, those witnessed my change for these two years. i'm no longer a crybaby. i'm no longer a cute little papa's girl. i'm numb because i learnt that not to make response is the best way to stop the rumors. i practised it and it had a great impact of my life. i was numb when i saw desmond's mother crying, jin ying and saykee hugged together and weeping, someone's boyfriend sobbed because of her leave and the hardness of LDR. i just thought that was quite normal. i didn't even wanna give a comfort because i was sorta watching the old me- cry over little thing and couldnt control my own emotions. it's not good to be tough. because i'm not easily touched and i'm ROBOT!.

still had plenty of things on my mind that i wanna blog bout. but i just lost the motivation. i kept my promise. i'm no longer emo. just, i spaced out alot. :P

take it easy, take it slow. enjoy life as the way it tortures you. bittersweet in my heart. love from the warmth of my hand. i promise i will be a better one for you. :)

ciaoz.