emptiness.

http://www.cherrybam.com/friendship-comments.php

My blog looks so empty after i removed the chat box. it's close to dead. I'm not a blog person. i really admire some of my friends can blog almost everyday. this is some determination or rather, habit i don't have. I don't like to read blogs, either. because that shows how out-dated n off track am i. gosh, i just dislike the feelings. lol anyway, this will probably be the last post i have in Malaysia. so guys, enjoy it! :D

This is a year full of happiness and sorrow; hopes and disappoinments. everything is being tested over and over again. some stands still, some stroke down. i never regret i had those memories with the collasped past. i took things as granted, i didnt know how to cherish or maintain. its down, part of my bad. but im grateful that i had them to motivate me to get back on my feet, to move on.

I had so many memories in my head playing. I remembered the first mate i had in INTI is careen. I remembered the first person i brought into my dorm is jin ying. I remembered the first time i stayed over in jin ying's house, i gotta feeling "yea, this is college life. n this person will be my BFF. yea, this is the feeling." I remembered those people accompanied and helped me to get through my tough time, i remember you, jin ying, yeongher, careen and april.

There are ups and downs in life. when we are on the top of our life, we are so afraid that this successful moment will abandon us soon. we can't sit still, we can't eat well, we can't keep our heart calm. because we all hate the feelings of "losing". but how many of us ever bother the feelings of "sharing"? share ur happiness with ur frens, the person u love and the people around. only few of us can really do so. but i'm proud to say that i found those i can share with in here. thankiu all. :)

People come and go. those I used to text everyday, chat with everyday r losing contact. everyone is having their own life. As well, it's my blame since I'm losing the initiative to start the talk first. i guess it results from some cold reply or late reply, might be some contentless reply too. it's hard to find a person that can listen to your problem without judgement. sometimes i just want to blah all my compaint out but not expect for any suggestion. of course, it's always blessed to have a pair of ears and wise advice waiting for u when u r in need. I think one of you is a good listener, you are the most patient people i've ever met. same person telling same topic for trillion times, yet, you're still responding well. *thumbs up* but i guess i have no chance to blah my complaint to you d. take care and remember i love you always.

I told april about my thought, right after I go back china, i'll deactivate my fb and msn account. same goes to this blog. there's an urge to detach myself from some certain surroundings. to detach from some disappointments i would say. n ther's a saying that, when u attached to something entirely so that u can detach from it. i guess it's true. it takes time to get attached first tho.

2 more weeks to finals. after that, so long Malaysia. 2 years, now left with 2 weeks. good luck to all my buddys. will c u in the States, if you r still willing to c my ugly emo shit face. :P

by here, i declare, my blog is officially dead. thanks for your support. endless and timeless love for you.

chaoz.
blogged by carmen the emo queen in the midnight of wei yeen's birthday. happy birthday love. :)
http://sheisagirl.wordpress.com/2008/02/23/riddle-our-friendship-story/